Purpose is the North Star
A personal message to artists about the power of purpose
In this week’s solo episode, I open up about a long-time secret that I’ve only shared with close friends and family. I speak to regrets, imposter syndrome, and ways that we hold our selves back by limiting beliefs. I talk about the power of positive daily reminders like, “You are enough”, and the impact they have in your life as well as others. I also share a brief update on the work I’ve been cranking on during the transformation of ärtful and the impact it is already beginning to have.
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[0:08] Welcome to ärtful, a community committed to championing artists and creative misfits from all walks of life.
This show gives you an insiders look into the rial, scrappy lives of artists creating with purpose, including interviews with beatboxers, graffiti writers, DJs, chefs, photographers, designers, illustrators, filmmakers, and music artists from around the globe.
as well as insights and inspiration from yours truly.
I'm Gabriel if an award-winning artist, coach, entrepreneur and fellow misfit. All right, let's do this.
[0:39] Music.
[0:51] I didn't get a degree even though I went to school and I'm still paying on student debt.
So that, like ties into a lot of like, not feeling like I'm successful, has not a za person as an entrepreneur in my career.
So I, like, have a lot of issues around that, and I'm acknowledging that sharing that because I'm talking about it now.
Uh, when I wasn't that I didn't finish school, and that was like a big kid thing for me.
I didn't share with people, and so now I'm opening up about it, so like it was, there were still so many good things from there, But I still feel like I'm still paying penance and I didn't even have the paper.
So it's like a really tough subject for me because it makes me feel like I'm not a good artist like I.
That's something I'm I'm continually having to like I say, I'm enough to myself every day, right?
Just as much as I say it. The others, you know, it's like constantly feeling like because I am not a specialist and I didn't I've not gone that way.
I felt like it was a curse and that I didn't finish school then I have student debt and then, you know, I have these things that I'm paying, paying on,
it just can come across as validation that you're not good.
[2:13] So that's part of why I lean into, like, telling people, you know you are enough.
You are an artist, you're creative, you know, you're all the things you want to be.
That's where a lot of that comes from. Of just my choice of being an entrepreneur is going to be successful at the same time of promoting my mission in this work I'm doing, you know, every day to serve others.
And so some time that's why gets, like really hard is Sometimes I feel like I'm not making any headway, you know, And so to start getting responses and start hearing things from people, it's like, OK,
maybe I am on the right track look like I think I am, But it's like that starts to be an affirmation that I am.
It's been a long three years.
[3:02] Of bringing this to light, like truly putting a mayor back up.
And I look at people like, you know, Chris Dough or Chase Jarvis.
These guys out there that you see their path and they talk about, you know, just then they have all this like coaching and methods and processes and shit worked out, you know, and I know it didn't start out that way.
But they've gotten to this point and they just started, like value, value, value And, you know, and I don't compare myself in that way. It's not like that anymore.
But it's like IBIs what my journey has been.
My quest is for this investigation around looking within, asking these questions, continuing to do the hard work.
[3:50] To be the best I can be for who I am, like how I help others.
And I keep thinking like with the community, you know what is value?
How am I bringing value? Am I bringing value to people to feel value?
And if I if I'm not? How I've looked at that as like a helper is if I'm not seeing engagement back, I feel like I'm just outputting.
And I know this is a common problem right outputting, and then you're like, But in my you know I am, I If I'm not seeing people have the buy-in literally,
or having the response like actually engaging with me, I equate that to.
[4:32] I'm not giving enough value, so it just makes me work harder. Which is what everybody says. You gotta work your ass off, right? And I'm like, Well, I'm a workaholic like my dad. So I've got that covered.
[4:43] You know, I'm just like, cranking away because I'm doing about us. Yo work right now that's like, mind-numbing. But I'm trying to, like, get boosted up in the, you know, in the searches and just doing a lot of work on the site.
And, you know, now that I brought critical Phantom and all that stuff in like it now it's starting to really fill up, and it's gotten to be a big site all the sudden quickly cause I just cranked on all that content I was doing that I'd already had written.
I just pulled in, but now it all makes sense, and it's cohesive to that big universe. The artful Universo.
It's cool like I just did some more work. I was like, Fuck, man, this is like, really cool. Like now it's starting to look like what I envisioned, and it's only been a few weeks, and it's to have this massive transformation and so that's been really, really cool to see that.
That's a validation to me of like my own work because I'm seeing something that, like, get to like a place it's not ever done right.
It's a website, but like it's quickly this turnaround of Hey, I just cranked in all this work.
And now look at all this work I've been doing because I can see it.
You know, all the critical fandom since a year ago, the podcasts and now the solo podcast in, like the community, the shop in like now the home pages like filled with shit.
You know, the artist spotlight and all this stuff. It's like.
[6:08] To me that's like to use the word again. But that's value, right, cause I'm giving back to the community of like, here's stuff to check out.
Here's stuff I believe in. What leads me to believe I'm on the right path is that I am getting engagement and that I'm getting people like in the hangouts and starting to write emails.
Once I started doing like the solo episodes like So there's like little breadcrumbs, that air saying to me, Keep doing what you're doing because a lot of people are in this space.
That's one thing I love about James Victory, you know, it is like that. Guys like Hunter S. Thompson.
He's just this maverick rule-breaking badass.
And so I'm looking at them right, cause there they are examples of how to be successful in this model or in this type of lifestyle of being,
ah, creative online entrepreneur type person or whatever creative entrepreneur who is like online embassy all this round line now.
But it's just hard when you're leading from Mission heart-based work.
You know, that's really hard when you when you're like having a struggle of belief in yourself and you're like in debt, paying for a school,
that has long since forgotten about your number and your pain, this loan company that has nothing to do with your education.
[7:34] And you don't have a diploma that says, You know, not that I need that piece of paper.
But like I didn't I only I gleaned that what I learned out of being there still cause I still went to school, and I still gleaned so many friends like friends.
Like all the philosophy and sociology and psychology that I took all the art classes that I took, so I still got all of that out of it.
I got to deejay at the radio station for four years.
You know, I started my career as a music buyer there.
It started deejaying, period. I was deejaying clubs, raves was promoting, you know? So they're like it got me here.
But I've like, really sat with it, and I'm like, It's not really about that.
It's just it's like a regret that's tied to also not being on this path of, like, I'm a designer and that feeling of like, I have got a lot of ideas.
What I didn't realize when I was young was that that's an entrepreneur, the idea, visionary guy, that's what they do.
And I was like, Oh, when I put that together, I'm like, Oh, that's cool My father in law's the entrepreneur when I talked to him, he knows what to come to me for it, cause he's like you have these ideas about the creative stuff, like naming, branding, marketing,
all of these things that people are gonna You're a people person right is like So I know what to come to you about.
[9:02] And cause I'll answer it within minutes like he asked me something other day.
I was like, Global about, and he's a God damn seriously.
I can't do what you just did in 30 seconds.
And so I know the worth. That's been a connective tissue in the work I've been doing, like any group. Matt, these masterminds and the hangouts and stuff.
One of my clients, Stephanie, said to me, She's like, You're who helps me see the bigger picture of what I'm doing and the potential of possibilities cause I was a technician.
[9:37] A year and 1/2 ago and then transition to be the leader, you know, and I didn't think I was a leader at all.
I've always known that this mission-based work is gonna take be the longer play, which I'm okay with that part.
Purpose is the North Star through the hardships of creating. And that's that journey that we're on, answering.
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[10:17] Well, that's it for this episode, whether this is your first time listening or you're already a fan.
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